Weekends.....

Weekends are when I tend to derail. I don't have a set schedule, I tend to sit at home and veg, which in fact doesn't have anything to do with vegetables. Unless they are covered in ranch dressing.

This weekend I worked Saturday morning, and one of my dear friends decided to bring doughnuts. I had two. or three. Then my mom decides to surprise me with lunch, a big mac, fries, and a coke. WTH People! See how I cast the blame there. Probably need to work on that. If I had any kind of willpower I would have passed on the doughnuts, or at least just had one. And I would have thanked my mom, and passed on the big mac and fries to one of my pregnant coworkers who could have used all those extra calories. But I didn't. Now I have to face the consequences tomorrow morning when my scales will be brutally honest with me, and show me just how bad I screwed up.

Sabotage....

I haven't exactly told my husband that I am trying to lose weight. Because as soon as I tell him, then I get the look everytime I eat something he doesn't think and then I get mad and eat more just to spite him, and it is just a downward spiral. But in not telling him I seem to be creating a reverse downward spiral, today he brought home a bag of candy from the store, and then he made chocolate chip cookies after dinner. Agh. I have no willpower at all!

So begs the question...to tell or not to tell.

Today I had a fabulous lunch date with the hubby. I debated salad/bacon cheeseburger? Guess what won? Yup. Cheeseburger. Almost my daily calories in one meal :/

Comfort food....

When I was a litte girl, my family didn't eat out. at all. But when I was sick, my mom would always suprise me with a happy meal. So now that has become my ultimate comfort food. A cheeseburger happy meal with fries and a hi-c. Healthy? no. yummy? eh. comforting? oh yeah.

So I have been sick. Nasty head cold, sore throat, headache and throw in a little nausea for good measure. Work today was miserable, so of course I left work and was in desperate need of comfort. I made a beeline for McD's. I got my comfort fix. and it felt so good! But the thing is, I know it is all in my head, not my stomach. So how do I re-program my head to think that veggies are the new comfort food?

On a side note, thanks to the nausea that is still all I have eaten today. So maybe I can manage to salvage the day, calorie wise. Healthwise is a whole other story.