This weeks weigh in

Despite the stresses of this week I managed to do pretty well. I had gained a little the week before, but I managed to lose that plus one additional pound. So I am down to 216, still behind my goal for the month, but I still have a week left so I will just do my best. I am trying not to get too hung up on a schedule or trying to set rigid goals for myself, my main goal is just to try and lose the weight, if it takes me longer than I hoped that is ok just as long as I am still losing.

A bad day.

I have had a very emotional day and when I am sad or upset I eat. I have tried to keep my eating in check, but I haven't done so hot. I am just praying that the week gets better. I will just fall apart if I get anymore bad news. Between my cousin losing their baby, losing a good friend, and just everyday stress I just want to curl up and cry for the next few days.

I did however force myself to go for a walk this morning. I only walked half a mile, but I guess every little bit helps. I just have to keep pushing through the bad days.

5 yrs.

Wow! Five years ago I married the most genuine, caring man I have ever met. In five years time alot of things have changed in our life, but I am still completely head over heels in love with that man! He was always a wonderful person, and then a great husband, but watching him be a daddy is amazing. Seeing his face the first time he held our oldest daughter trying to fight back tears, but still letting one slip out as he stared at this beautiful child we made together. Watching him walk the halls with her at night when she couldn't be consoled, they spent many nights together that way. Laughing as he fumbled with diapers, waiting too long until she peed on him. Seeing the pride in his face the first time she said "dada". Having him holding my hand as I laid on the operating table at the birth of our second daughter. Seeing him bravely look over the curtain as he doctor pulled out our baby girl. Seeing that same tear slip down his cheek when he looked at her. Laughing and crying together over the stress and fun and complete madness of raising four kids. Having him be this amazing pillar of strength as our baby girl went through open heart surgery. He was just as scared as I was, but he held it together while I was falling apart. Looking back on this life we have made brings about every emotion, but most of all just pure HAPPINESS!

So far so good...

After having a really bad weekend, I have done much better this week. I went to the store and got lots of fruits and veggies and healthy snacks. I made a strawberry smoothie for breakfast and it was sooo good.

I am going to try and go a full week without weighing in. I tend to weigh everyday and I think that since I never see a big loss from day to day it makes it seem like I am not making good progress. I think that if I make sure I only weigh in once a week I will see a bigger loss and it will be more of a motivator. That's the plan anyway.

A bad weekend...

I didn't do so good this weekend. My mom, my aunt, and I went out to eat at Chili's and I ate way too much. I then ate a crapload of m&m's later. So yeah the scales were not kind to me this morning. Today is another day and I am just going to get right back on track.

My husband is killing me.

He just brought me home my favorite candy bar in a king size! That is super sweet and I love him for it, but it isn't going to help my diet at all. I have no willpower, but I am going to try and make it stretch for as long as possible.

Tomorrow is the end....

of week one!

I am feeling pretty confident at this point. I had a couple of rocky days, but I did good yesterday and then I went for my walk this morning. I have decided to start timing myself and setting goals for how far I want to walk in a certain period of time. I always do so much better when I start my day out exercising. I want to eat better so that it wasn't in vain. I just feel so much better about myself and more energized. It is awesome!

I did cheat and weigh in a day early and I am down one pound. That was my goal! I would love to lose more and I might if I ever get through a week without having any bad days. I am actually really looking forward to school starting so that I can have a better routine and will be more active. I think this is going to be a great year!

Feeling optimistic! :)